Midweek Thought Download

Oh My F’n God – My Jaw aches 😢I just needed to get that out because I’ve been holding it in all day. I’ve been trying to pretend it doesn’t hurt as much as it does. I saw the ENT today. First, my jaw is not swinging right. It’s pulling to the left which is the side of my pain. Also, I’m not producing saliva on the left side which is still indicative of Sjogrens Syndrome but he said today, “what came first? The jaw problem or the saliva issue? That’s what we have figure out because that is the source of the problem!” He is sending me to TMJ/Jaw/Saliva Gland specialist at Penn Medicine in the Perlman Center in Philly. Who knew one of those types of specialist existed? 😂😂My ENT made an appointment for me on Tuesday morning with the guy at Penn which is great because that guy has a two month waiting list 👍

In the meantime, we trying to manage the pain & lower the inflammation. I had to buy a temporary mouth guard at CVS. I don’t grind my teeth but I probably clench my jaw. I could be pulling it out of alignment. I also need to suck on lemons/limes again. I’m glad I’m off the next four days. I am actually happy about the answers I got today. This problem started in April and never complexly resolved. I feel like I’ll have more answers on Tuesday because they told me they will do a panoramic view of my mouth and an MRI on my Saliva gland while I’m there. I’m headed in the right direction.

Other news, my boss told me he’s talking to my GM tomorrow to try and get approval for my application for the temporary assignment as a Grant Outreach Coordinator. He has the support of the other members of the Leadership committee; he just needs the GMs final approval before I can submit the application. I actually cried in gratitude as we talked. He got choked up too and blushed 😂😂We had a moment 😂He saw what it meant to me 🦋 I couldn’t hide it. I see people I work with everyday who love what they do. I do not feel that. This is an opportunity for me to find the same passion for the work they already have. It’s about fulfillment. My motivation is to finally find fulfillment in my career. Perhaps my unhappiness in my job is the reason for my jaw clenching while I sleep🦋 So this job move could improve my health too 🙏🦋 My Boss said he will include a recommendation for me in his letter of approval that gets submitted with the application 🦋Fingers crossed the GM gives me the blessing 🦋🤞I really am very thankful my new boss is a good man who understand what is truly important in life and knows how to treat an employee. Other work news, I’m enjoying my relationship with my new work mentor. He’s funny too 😂I was calling him my Guru today “Guru McG” is his name now 😂😂We were cracking up 🦋😂

And, of course, I end my day with ice on my jaw and Bluelove on my mind. Hmm? I wonder if he is thinking about me too??💙🦋💙💙🦋

(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

Life is best when lived passionately

Posted in Love, Sex & Poetry Collection

Big Love And Getting Unstuck – long post :-)

Big Love – Love, Sex & Poetry

By: Linda A. Long

Is our love
Big enough
To ride the waves
Riding the
Up and downs
Of life
Independently
But still
Carefully
Staying tethered
To each other
Balancing between
The needs of self
And the desires
Of the other
Is our love
Open enough
To allow growth
And awareness
Into our experience
Perhaps uncovering
Uncomfortable truths
Pushing each other
To the edge by
Challenging boundaries
Yet pulling back
With love
Compassion and
Acceptance
Are you working
In my background
Planning a way
Smoothing a road
Keeping a watchful eye
Without interjecting
Valuing my
Growth, happiness and fulfillment
As much as your own
Can I call you
A friend
Can I rest easy
In the knowledge
That you love me
Can I look into
Your beautiful
Blue eyes
And know our paths
Are intertwined
Can I sleep tonight
Knowing
This is not the end
Of the road for us
It’s just
A new direction
We will travel together
Can I move forward
Into my
Pursuit of personal
And professional fulfillment
Knowing you are
Moving along
With me
As the mate
To my soul
As the joint
Synergy of our
Divinely inspired
Connection
Can I rest assured
It is as important
To you as it is
To me
That I am fulfilled
Is our love
Big enough
Wide enough
Strong enough
Ready to face
The next chapter
In our journey
Is it your hand
I will hold
Is it your mouth
I will kiss
Is it your waist
I will ride for enjoyment
Before I drift off
To sleep
Wrapped in your arms
Is our love
Big enough
To handle the
Enormity of our shift
For me
The answer is
YES
My love for you
Is BIG enough
It’s BIG LOVE
(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

Life is best to be lived passionately!

NOTE:

Having Autoimmune Diseases is much life riding a wave. You are up for a while then you are down for a while. The key is to learn how to manage your thoughts so the down times do not break you. If you are like me, it’s also essential to learn to capitalize on the good times and use them to your advantage.

I realized this past week that I am in some kind of Sjogren’s Syndrome Flare up. The possible causes are a pain from a unrelenting migraine, nutritional deficiencies, stress and my being so driven I don’t know when to stop myself☺️On Wednesday night, I came face to face with the fact that my body needed to be still. Complete stillness – My body just couldn’t be pushed another day. I have an infection in my left ear. I am also having a Salivary Gland issue on the left side again and I can feel my TMJ is tight.

Believe me, this started two weeks ago with a migraine that would not break. When I get stressed, I tighten up my jaw. I know you might say, “stop doing that”. But, I don’t always realize it’s happening. I need to be more self aware so I lightly massage it when it starts. I think me tightening up from migraine pain and the clenched jaw was blocking drainage from my ear and saliva flow from my Salivary Gland.

The good news is I started an antibiotic on Wednesday and called out sick for two days. It’s Friday morning and I am starting to feel drainage and I am starting to feel relief in my ear and my Saliva Gland. I also cancelled all of my plans for the weekend. I put a pot of Chicken Soup on. I bought the pencil for my iPad Pro so I will be doing some high tech coloring. I may work on a puzzle or read. This is a time to slowness and stillness to allow my body to restore and heal. It is also time for me to allow things to be cleared out both physically and spiritual. This is not a time for movement. So no yoga but maybe by the end of the weekend I’ll be up for a light walk. In other words, this is not a time for me to force or push. This is a time for me to surrender, allow and just be still to allow my body to replenish itself.

So, what were the causes of my stress? The causes of my stress are complex. First, I was very much starting to feel like I was the “IMPACT” of other people’s’ choices. In other words, I was giving all of my power over to other people and waiting to see what they would do. I was doing this in my professional and my personal life. That type of uncertainty stresses me out to no end because I am CREATOR. I hold my power. I determine my future. I have a choice. I have FREE WILL. I felt like the power to create my life was being taken away from me. I was very much feeling like my choices were being made by others. I needed to do something to take my power back. I did that this week.

Second, I was stressed because I was feeling STUCK. I was feeling like it was time for me to move forward but I was being held in place; hanging in limbo both professionally and personally. I felt like energy was blocked in me and it was preventing me from being a CREATOR. I needed to take steps to get UNSTUCK. I did that this week.

Third, I was feeling like I had to walk on eggshells all the time with certain folks in my life. Whatever makes them happy was my focus. Well, what about me? What about what I want? What about what I need to be fulfilled in all aspects of my life? I was trying to be so careful I didn’t piss them off, cross the line while trying to stay in their good graces that I lost sight of my own needs. I can’t live that way. I stressed myself out wondering which way the wind is blowing with them on any given day. This goes for personal as well as professional – to the folks – who haven’t made their mind up about me yet —Please take the time you need to reflect on where you see me in your life. If you want me in your life, give me some encouragement to know I am valued. If it’s time for us to take a break, let’s have a gentle chat as grown ups. Which ever it is, it is all good. I will respect that and follow your lead accordingly. If you still don’t know, that is ok. Please trust me enough to confide your worries & apprehensions in me. Let me your be a partner or at least know where I stand. Take the time you need to figure it all out just please don’t make me walk on eggshells or expect me to ride the wave of your indecision anymore. I’m moving forward. I would like you to move forward in my life but I will respect your need for space and will not pressure you. This issue was manifesting in a few areas of my life with a few people. It created a great deal of stress for me. I needed to move forward to get my energy unstuck, I did that this week.

Fourth, work…UGH… work😂😂😂I took some positive steps to take back my power there too this week. One current Manager(who is also a personal friend) and one former Manager coached me a bit this week. Which was great. Both of them really helped me clarify what my issues were and why I was getting so stressed out. While I did call out sick yesterday, I did ask my new Manager for a phone call. He texted me by 7:15am asking if I wanted to talk at 7:30am 😂 Because of my chats with my “coaches”, I went into our phone call with complete clarity and I was able to speak directly with respect. I asked for his support to apply for temporary assignment that was more aligned with passion and interests. He agreed to support and advocate for my request but also told me it wasn’t completely his decision. I should know something by Monday. After that, I went into my concerns which all rests in the fact that I am over tasked because of a lack of clarity of my roles and responsibilities. It needs to stop. Everything CAN NOT be pushed my direction just because I get shit done and I am good with following up or hunting people down😂 I found our conversation refreshing. I was able to communicate directly with him. I also found out he’s extremely overwhelmed too. We both agreed our team needs some strategic support in figuring things out given the change in roles. Our current strategic support has been sucked up by a system I now refer to the BEAST; it really is a four letter word and that team is hot mess. The team dynamics is toxic and unhealthy; he agreed. We agreed to ask a consultant group to help us. Our GM doesn’t understand our Function enough to guide us and I am too far in the weeds to see the way out. I need someone to pull the stuff out of head and brainstorm with us. I also “coached” my Manager a little😂 It suggested it was time for him to demonstrate strong leadership for his team. It’s time to for him to drive it like he stole it😂 You don’t need a committee to make decisions for your team. You are the boss😂 He agreed. I saw this conversation as a positive step in our relationship and it established a direct communication path for us as well as helped us come to agreement of the issues we are both encountering. The truth is we are drowning because of the lack of experience from leadership in key roles. That’s the bottom line. Nothing but truth right there…

In my conversation with my boss, I did not address my concerns about the overall leadership of the Organization. The poor choices I’ve seen made this year or the lack of effective prioritization of critical issues and staffing needs. I didn’t address the “leadership by committee” approach that I feel is crippling the Organization. My take is – if you want to move yourself into the big office and keep the fancy title, you need to make the hard decisions and take the hits. Take the 51% voting privileges instead of hiding behind the “leadership committee voted”. Just my opinion…

I am happy getting myself unstuck freed up space for creativity. The poem I am feeling come up is for Bluelove and it’s around the question… “Is our love big enough?”

(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

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Day 11 Of The Headache And Vitamin D

Day 11 – Yes, I still have a headache. It’s not horrible but it’s still here. I hope it fades away a bit with each passing day. I’m exhausted again today which could still be a “hangover” from the steroids. I am not getting too worried about that. I am just talking things easy this week. Work is about the only thing I will be accomplishing this week. It’s the only thing I’ll have energy to do. Hopefully, with another night of good sleep I’ll be a little better tomorrow.

Today’s developments – My doctor called me. My blood work tanked again. My Vitamin D level wen’t from 75 to 24 since July and a few other things were low again. I stopped eating Dairy in June. So there is an obvious correlation between the Vitamin D level and my Diary consumption. She also told me the low Vitamin D could be the source of the headaches and the muscle aches and twitches. I mentioned to her I wasn’t handling stress well lately. She told me that is also related to all of the nutritional deficiencies. She said once I get them up and regulated, I should be back to normal. We aren’t completely sure why I am not holding/absorbing nutrients from food. I eat a pretty balanced diet. She asked about the additional weight I’ve been losing. Honestly, I just haven’t been very hungry. I was pretty excited the sweater I wore yesterday and the dress I wore today were both loose on me. But she asked me to monitor it more. She wants to make sure I am not losing weight by accident. In that case, that would be a problem.

My doctor went over my supplements and here is my Daily Vitamin Cocktail for the next three months:

Multi-Vitamin with 1000 of Vitamin D. I bought Mega Foods Food Sourced.
Vitamin D 5000 (the brand doesn’t matter; cheapest is fine)
Iron 65 (the brand doesn’t matter; cheapest is fine)
Stress B-Complex with C (Twin Labs) – This one is good for stressed out people 😂<
lue Ice Cod Liver Oil; It’s my Fish Oil; it’s for Inflammation and various other stuff.

I usually get my blood work checked every three or four months. We will see happens the next go around but she seemed to think I should plan on taking the full vitamin cocktail I listed above for life except for Iron. Too much Iron can be toxic. Once I stop having a cycle, I can discontinue the Iron.

Other news…I made a decision today that I am going to ask my Manager for approval to apply for the one year temporary assignment as a Grant Program Coordinator with another group in our “company”. Here why I am doing it?? When I was the Executive Director of a non profit, I absolutely loved writing Grants and I was good at it too. Although this job isn’t as Grant Writer, it is in the neighborhood. I also think it would give me an opportunity to use all of top five strengths: Strategic, Futuristic, Ideation, Intellection and Relator. My StrengthFinders Strengths are below 🙂 I have a lot of experience coordinating and collaborating between multiple stakeholders while managing multiple responsibilities. This job seems like the perfect opportunity to bridge the gap between my Museum Executive Director Grant Writing experience and my current experience doing coordination and stakeholder relations skills. Let me be clear. I don’t hate my current job but this job literally showed up in my inbox without me even looking for it. When a job that seems to be perfect for you shows up in your inbox without you even looking for it, it’s a sign from the Universe. It’s time to go with the flow and follow the signs.

The first step is for me to ask my Manager for approval to submit an application package. I plan to do that tomorrow, if possible. If not, by the end of the week would be good. I really hope they at least let me apply. They take so much from me and make no invest in employees. At least let me apply and see what happens. Just because I apply doesn’t mean I will get it but it will make me feel good to at least follow the sign from the Universe and apply.

I guess I am also open to making a move at this time because I feel like it’s time for a fresh start or a clean break of sorts. I feel stuck. I feel like I’ve stayed too long. This is the longest period of time I’ve ever been in one job. I changed my cubicle a few months ago because I needed a change. I just feel like it’s it time. I am just not happy there anymore. I am not unhappy. I don’t hate it. I just don’t enjoy it anymore. If I don’t get the detail, I’ll survive and continue to do a good job for them. But, I have figured out I need to pull back a little and not offer them as much. And, I won’t lie. With Bluelove not coming back, it won’t be any fun to work there anymore. He made it fun for me. I enjoyed it because I enjoyed being around his passion for what he did. With him gone, it’s just work; just a job for me. With it being just work or just a job, I might as well try out a temporary gig doing something that interests me. Who knows, maybe I’ll find passion for this work in a different group seeing things through a new lens. If Bluelove and I are meant to still be connected through this life, we will still be connected regardless of where I work or who I work for. The only difference is I may find more professional fulfillment by trying out something new. So, I am praying for guidance and wisdom that my guides fill me with the right words to ask my boss for approval to apply. I want to make sure they understand I am in interested in it because it ties all of my experience together, I think I would be really good at it and it could lead to me being more fulfilled professionally.

That’s it for tonight. I am going to put myself on the sofa and watch stupid tv the rest of the night.

(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

Life is best when lived passionately!

Posted in Love, Sex & Poetry Collection

Totally Out Of My Mind Today

Day 10 of the headache BUT… I think there is light at the end of my tunnel. Praise God 😂😂

Let’s me first start with saying it’s amazing I made through a 9 hour work day today. I was all over the place. The steroids had me jacked up in morning. They revved me up. My stomach was upset. I was sweating profusely. I hid out in my cubicle so no one would see me. I did, however, look quite cute today. One of my coworkers commented how pretty I looked after she saw me in the bathroom. It cracked me up. If she only knew I was hiding all kinds of crazy stuff that was going on in my body.

My Naturopathic Doc texted me this morning to remind me to buy the Stress B Vitamin Formula for my twitching eye. She said when you are under stress, your body burns up the B & C Vitamins. So, I need to bump them up for a while. I also suspected I was getting dehydrated from sweating so much too. I went during lunch and picked up the Vitamins and Gatorade. About an hour after eating, drinking the Gatorade and taking B Vitamins, I started coming down and I noticed my eye was not twitching as much. She was right. The muscle twitches were due to B Vitamins and probably stress induced. By 1:00 today I was absolutely exhausted and needed a nap. Instead I took a walk with a coworker who also wasn’t feeling well but we commiserated as we walked 😂

I am on the fourth day of the steroids. They have been helpful and did break something up in my head but that’s it. I done with them. It time for me detox and rebuild myself nutritionally. Also, the steroids made me feel crazy. Seriously crazy. I was very emotional and was on the verge of making irrational decisions. My coworker said to me as we walked down the hall, “Thank God none of the Managers are here today. You would have definitely told someone off today!”😂😂

So, yes, it was better for me to avoid a lot of interaction today. But, I did look good💁 Goes to show you… it doesn’t matter how you feel as long as you look good. Oh speaking of looking good, preppy Bluelove looked as cute as ever 😘 💙That look on him always gets my motor going😂 💙But, I was out of my mind today and it was best I stayed away. He didn’t need to be part of my drama today. I hope to be back in my right mind tomorrow. I hope he looks just as cute. We need to see each and spark some poetry for me. 💙 #prettyplease 😂 Seriously, pretty please 💙💙🙏😂😂✌️💋😈

So, yesterday I wrote that I would not go looking for a new job with the “company” but if one manifested I would be open to it. Today an advertisement was delivered right to my inbox about a one year temporary assignment in the Grants office as the Administrator and it was based at my current location😂😂 Wow! That as quick 😂👍 This blew my mind. Grants office? That’s right in my wheelhouse. Administrator? I am former Executive Director of a non profit. It’s perfect for me 🙌The only hang up is whether my current Management team would allow me to go on a temporary assignment for a year. I can’t imagine that will go over well. I would really love to chat with someone for advice about this but I am not sure who to ask for advice. Maybe a former coworker who will be coaching me can be a good sounding board on this and help me work through it?? I am going to think it over the next few days and see if I want to approach my Manager about exploring it by submitting an application. My Manager would have to approve it for me before I submit the application. I have until 11/13/17 to submit it.

I am fairly exhausted tonight. I am hoping that means a good night sleep is in my future. I am also planning on being in my right mind tomorrow without a headache. The Stress B Vitamins with Vitamin C by Twin Labs are in the photo below. My Naturopathic doc recommends them to anyone (women or men) who under a lot of stress as your body burns up the B and C Vitamins when you are stressed out. They are available at Vitamin Shoppe and are on sale.

The reason I chose the above photo is because I felt completley out of my mind today hyped up on steroids but I still had my coworker cracking up.

(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

Life is best when lived passionately…

Posted in Love, Sex & Poetry Collection

Self Care Sunday

I am sure it is clear that I’ve been using my blog as a online journal. I am using it as a place to capture my thoughts and document the events of my life. It’s also an outlet for my emotions. It feels good to download what I am thinking and how I am thinking. My posts have been chuck full of information about the stress I feel in my full time job. School work, starting up the business and the emotions I feel.

Unfortunately, I haven’t really been writing a whole lot of poetry in recent months. Mostly because I need inspiration to write. I like to write about love and sex. My “Muse” (Bluelove) has been my inspiration for four years now. However, I don’t see him very often anymore and when we do see each other it’s not really quality time. I can’t glean inspiration from his cute face in our limited interactions. That is kind of blocking the flow of creative energy for my poetry at this time. This could be a temporary situation for us or it could mean I need to find a new “muse”… I am not really sure what it means yet. One thing is clear to me. I LOVE him. And would like him to continue to be my “Muse” and my Bluelove. So, I am just tying to just go with the flow and ride out this transition with him even though it causes me some anxiety being disconnected from him. I do know I love him and he should rest assured in knowing I am in love with him. I am just trying to deal with living in uncertainty and adjust to not writing as much poetry for him. This is not really easy for me as I am creative person.

So I am writing journal entries instead of poetry just so I write something until I am inspired once again to write love and sex poetry, my posts will be my journal energies. I will be writing to help release some tension. Today I am a mixed bag to stress, anxiety, gratefulness and excitement. I’ve more or less had some form of a headache or migraine since last Saturday. It’s been 8 or 9 days now. In some ways it is better and some ways it just not going away.

My Chiropractor adjustment definitely helped and freed something up. I need to go weekly for a while to get my neck adjusted to keep the alignment in tack. My headache could actually just be head pain as my head adjusts to be put back into alignment. If that is the case, the pain will slowly away. My doctor did tell me I had significant swelling in my sinus and ears and gave me steroids on Thursday. I noticed today something started breaking open in my head. My nose in running and ears are felling less full. The steroids have me a good bit revved up. Everyone was cracking up at my chattiness this morning in the cafe where I ate breakfast. I am not usually overly chatty. I am more of a listener than a talker. Today I talked the whole time. My left eye has been twitching since yesterday. That could be stress but I am thinking it’s the steroids. I think the steroids are jacking up my blood pressure a bit. My Blood Pressure is normally 110/60. The last two days it’s been 144/90. That’s high for me and I think that’s the reason my eye is twitching. I only have one more day of the steroids so it should calm down after tomorrow. I am also using a warm compress on my eyes to smooth the muscles. My Naturopathic Doc suggested increase my B vitamins for muscle cramps. It did help the pain a bit but my eye still is twitching. I will also meditate this afternoon and try to relax a bit. It’s 1:22pm on Sunday and all of my chores are done for the day. So, I have the time to mediate, practice light yoga and relax.

The stress from my full time job…It’s a sticky complicated topic. It’s really the constant churn. No one ever has a moment to breathe. My new boss isn’t really even in the chair full time yet. As a credit to me, people trust me and come to me for help. This is also bad for me because every one comes to me for help because they can’t get in with managers who are constantly locked up in conference rooms and aren’t accessible. It kind of puts me in a stressful spot as I am perceived as the front line for them. I am trying to learn how to decipher what’s mine and what’s not mine to worry about. I guess I haven’t been doing such a good job of that in recent weeks. I asked for coaching session from folks I trust because I am getting myself twisted up with not knowing how to approach this. How to help folks but not take on what should not be mine? How to help but not do work that should be done by the manager who hasn’t taken full ownership of his team yet? How do I support the GM who lacks some fundamental understanding of key business practices without getting myself frustrated with their focus on micromanaging lower level tasks and public relations? I don’t know how to do that yet. I am trying to figure that all out. I have come to realization that leaving this job, even if I stayed in the “company”, is not a good idea at this time of my life. I am in school. I working slowly to develop my coaching business. I am working privately on my own website. I am trying to take care of my health. Changing jobs right now would just add to the stress in my life. I need to find a way to manage the situation so it’s less stressful. Unless, of course, something perfect falls into my life and all the signs point to it being the right choice. I am just saying I am not looking for it or searching for it. However, if it manifests on its own, that’s different. Then I would do it.

Folks have been telling me I pushing myself too hard lately with school, the coaching business and finishing my Reiki Master training yesterday. The truth is that all makes me happy. I enjoy it. I am loving school. I am enjoy the creation of process of building a business. I am loving what I am learning along the way. I am helping my fellow students with what I am learning along the way. And finally finishing my Reiki Master Teacher training makes me incredible proud of the accomplishment. I cried during the ceremony. I started this crazy health journey six years ago. I became a Reiki Practitioner fives years ago to help heal myself. My Naturopathic Doc is my Reiki Master Teacher. We’ve known each other for six or seven years; she used to own a yoga studio. That’s how we met. She’s been on this journey with me. To be initiated as Reiki Master by her was especially rewarding and meaningful to me. She’s part of my healing journey. I consider her a friend, a healer, a guide, my massage therapist, my naturopathic doc and my Reiki Teacher. She is my spiritual mentor. I am thankful she is based locally in Somers Point 🙂 She doesn’t have a website otherwise I would post it. She mostly gets clients through word of mouth and having a great reputation.

I have a coaching call set up with my IIN Accountability Partner today. I have to fill out my “Circle of Life” form before the call to assess where I am out of balance. It should be an interested call today. 😂😂🦋 Honestly, I just feel like I need a good cry to get it all out today.

Perhaps, I will let it all out today and actually let myself have a moment to be weak and cry.

(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

Life is best when lived passionately

Posted in Headaches, Health, Highest Good Holistic Health Coaching, Integrative Nutrition, Love, Sex & Poetry Collection, Reiki | Tagged , , , ,

Migraines and Musings

Well, it’s Day 6 of head pain 😦 It is getting better slowly and I did get a few answers. First, I went to the Chiropractor last night. He said my Upper Cervical Spine was jacked up especially on the right side. The adjustment did bring down the pain level and obviously did free something up but it didn’t solve the problem. I went to the Doctor this morning. She said my ears are completely filed with fluid. She was surprised I could hear. Lol 🙂 She said the right side was worst the left. But, the interesting thing is the left hurts more. It doesn’t appear to be infected so no antibiotics but I did walk out with a prescription for a five day course of steroids to help the ears drain and bring down the inflammation🤕

Here’s the thing… as someone who advocates for using holistic methods to manage health problems, it’s never easy for me to willingly sign up to take pharmaceuticals. My doctor and I had lot of conversations about this over the last few years. She finally has me seeing her point. I see now there are times when you need to take a pharmaceutical. If I wasn’t allergic to NSAIDS and Aspirin, I could have taken Advil and it probably would not have escalated to this point. For now, I am not ready to spend to a week in the hospital to get myself desensitized to Aspirin just so I can take Advil. For now, I am accepting there will be times when I need to take short course of steroids to get inflammation under control but I will not agree to taking them daily. It’s five days. Five days I can handle! My body is otherwise strong so the steroids should not have a great impact to my overall holistic health. I also found out that I’ve lost 50lbs over six years. Although I could easily drop another 20lbs, my doctor joked that it’s mostly in my boobs so she wouldn’t worry about it. Lol 🙂

So, I am starting steroids today. I wanted to take the steroids to eliminate the pain because I am taking my Reikii Master training on Saturday. It’s an all day course. I want to be somewhat pain free Saturday so I can enjoy the course. If all goes as planned, I will be a Reikii Master as of as of 5:00pm Saturday. I will then offer Reikii Sessions as part of Health Coaching business.

So, I had an appointment with Accountant earlier this week for my coaching business. Wow, it was a lot to think about. Basically, he helped me understand how to pay for things out of the business account so I can show the start up costs as a loss. I can also deduct my IIN tuition and Reikii Trainings as start up costs through the LLC. Since my LLC passes through my personal taxes, the losses will lower my tax bracket on my W-2 job. That means I could get a sizable return when I do my taxes for 2017. He said I was smart to form the LLC the same year I paid the tuition:-) Just more proof that you have to follow the signs in life and go with the flow. The signs told me to open the business and now it looks like it was good timing and will be financially advantageous to me.

The accountant also advised me to consider moving to a two bedroom apartment so I can use and claim one room as a home office/yoga/reiki II zone. It’s $3,500 deduction. I am interested in moving to a two bedroom but… I need to balance that against with my safety, personal fulfillment, relationships, happiness and life balance. I currently live in a high rise. As a single woman, I love high rise living. I make a phone call, guys come and fix stuff. It’s awesome 🙂 My cleaning lady is married to one of the handyman so she does an extra special job for me. No one can come to my front door without passing my the Doorman/Guard. I can let folks in the back door with my key to avoid the guard but that’s my prerogative. Given that I’ve had my share of ex-boyfriends and stalkers, I am glad there is a barrier to me. Lol 🙂 I love the building I live in. I’ve made friends. I play Mah-Jong with a group of women. I eat breakfast at a local cafe on weekends with some other folks from my building. Since I live at the beach, living by high ground is important. My parking lot is high ground. My car is safe. My lease is up for renewal at the beginning of the year. My landlord and I haven’t talked about it yet. I talked to the building manager today and asked her to let me know if any two bedrooms open up in the building. But for now, that’s it. I do not want to move out of the building for a two bedroom. So the $3,500 wouldn’t be worth the life balance, safety and peace of mind I’d be giving up in 2018. My situation may be different in 2019. Maybe I’ll be more open to moving out of the building or moving offshore. Maybe I’ll move in with a new boyfriend and start a new life by then. But for now, I want to stay in my current building and continue to enjoy the life I carved out of myself here.

Coaching business update… I take small steps each day towards my goal. With working full time, going to school and managing my life, I need to take the business start up slowly. I am also a planner and a strategist by nature. I like to visualize and think things out before I act. I am not a reactor. Taking the slow approach gives me time to digest and absorb new information and strategize based upon events or signs that I receive while riding the flow of Universal energy. While I can do Life Coaching under the umbrella Integrative Nutrition Health Coach, I am also going to pursue a separate Life Coach Credential when I am done IIN in May 2018. I will also be able to write that off through the business next year.

I also figured out I prefer the 30 minute coaching model. I’ve experimented with 60 and 30 minute sessions. Right now, with my other responsibilities, 30 minute appointments work for me and are easier for me to manage. I am starting to offer a FREE 30 minute discovery session on “What is Holistic Health Coaching” via phone, FaceTime and Skype to new clients. If they sign up, I will set up 30 minute check-ins with them. Our conversations will be more focused and topic driven based upon their needs and/or concerns rather than free form dialogue. I want folks to walk away from every appointment with something meaningful to think about or work on. Keeping to a 30 minute model will protect my energy a bit and keep me balanced in life too. 30 minutes also means I can offer cheaper rates to clients who may be a budget.

I am not interested in coaching folks to be the perfect size or be in perfect health. I am interested in helping folks make better choices for their life and their body. I don’t want clients coming to me and saying “I want to lose 50lbs”. I want them to say “I want to feel better!”. Then we can start looking at their life to find small ways to help them feel better. As they choose to feel better, the necessary changes will happen organically and will be easier for them to handle. My goal is to help my clients live their highest good life – whatever that may look like to them. Some just want to be able to walk around the block and not eat as much sugar. Well, let’s start walking for ten minutes a day and let’s start eating sugary vegetables such as carrots and sweet potatoes to crowd out candy, chocolate and soda but still get a sugar fix. This what I can offer. I been there. I’ve done it. I am living it.

Speaking of coaching, I love having coaches. I am very coachable. My Accountability Partner from school is one of coaches. We are tagging up to coach each other this Sunday. I am also reaching to folks who I think can help me grow or may able to expand my knowledge or awareness. I respect people’s time and business calendars so I only ask folks for 30 minutes chats. I usually only ask for one-off type of appointments unless, of course, we determine we want to meet more often. If I ask someone to give me a coaching session, it’s because I respect them and their knowledge and want to learn from them.

Professionally, I had an opportunity to meet with one of my work mentors who was in town for the day yesterday. I credit a good part of my growth this past year professionally to working for him. We clicked. He never tried to solve my problems. When I went to him with a problem, he didn’t automatically jump in. He told me what to do, what to say, who to talk to and told me me come back to him with the results. He would then give me the next steps. That method taught me how to handle situations and how talk to people. He said to me, “It’s a credit to you that two men who you directly supported have been promoted. Your skills helped both of us look good!” Lol 🙂 He also told me, “You are trying to do the work and fix all of the problems. No wonder you are stressed out. You can only do what you can do but kudos to you for doing such a great job by “acting” as the manager even when you weren’t asked to!” Lol 🙂 Hmm, I guess I was managing:-) I was glad to have my 30 minutes with him 🙂 I have a few invitations for coaching sessions outstanding. I am hoping they can afford me 30 minutes in their hectic schedules I am open to any format phone, FaceTime, Skype or in person. I do value their guidance.

Now, because I was in pain for the last few days, I’ve noticed some fear based thinking creeping into my experience. My guard has been down. I’ve been working extra hard to shut down the negative Nancy who lives in my head. She is a fear based thinker. For example, it seems clear to me that Bluelove is staying in his current job. I think that is wonderful for him and his career. I am happy for him. The role suits him and I would do anything to support him both personally and professionally. Where my fear based thinking enters the conversation is that I do not know what means to our relationship/interactions. I don’t know if that means I will have to let him go. I don’t know if that means he will no longer be a part of my life. It freaks me out. I am praying that everything is working out for the highest good of all concerned but it would make me sad to lose him. It would make me very sad to not have him in my life. Especially because he’s been looking super cute and healthy late. Lol 🙂 Even my mentor commented that Bluelove (he called him by his actual name, lol ) is looking better than he’s looked in years and he is wondering what his secret is:-) I just agreed and said, “You are right. he does look good; he looks healthy!” 😂😂🦋 💙 Secretly, I like to think Bluelove is taking care of himself is because he knows he has a hot girl checking him out and loving him so he takes better care of himself. Lol 🙂 At least, I secretly hope I am part of the reason he looks happier and healthier :-)🦋💙

Well, I need to lay down and give my meds time to work. I plan to work 6am to 2pm tomorrow and then get plenty of rest before my Reiki Master training on Saturday.

What’s on your mind today? How’s life? Are you mentoring or coaching someone? Do you enjoy it as much as I do? 🦋

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Life is best when lived passionately

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Migraine Again…

It’s Sunday at 12:22pm and the pain from a two day migraine relented a bit so I am writing a blog. I knew on Friday I was ripe for a migraine. I could feel the tension in my shoulders and neck. My TMJ was really painful all week too. A coworker actually noticed my jaw was clenched when I passed her in the hallway and asked me if I needed to talk. I, of course, said no. I was too busy and soldiered on…

I was also ripe for migraine because I didn’t eat on a regular schedule. When I wait too long to eat between meals, I get headaches. I also had a great deal of work related frustration and stress building up. Many of my coworkers would just go out drinking on Friday night and forget about it. I can’t do that.

When I got home Friday night, I was completely stressed out. I was planning to jump into a hot shower, practice yoga and watch a couple of my school video lectures on holistic wellness. That’s my passion and I enjoy it. I couldn’t do that either. I didn’t have any hot water as the there was a problem with the plumbing in my apartment building. They were working on it when I got home so no hot shower. I also noticed my WIFI wasn’t working. After spending an hour on the phone with Xfinity, I found out I had to drive out to the store 20 minutes from my home to get a new router. After two more hours, my WIFI was back online but I still didn’t eat dinner. It was 9pm and I ate lunch at 12pm. When I finally did eat, it didn’t agree with me. I was a bad day all around.

I woke up Saturday with a tension headache. I am allergic to Aspirin and NSAIDS and I try not to take prescription migraine meds. I took Tylenol and two cups of coffee for caffeine and I drove up to Philly for a meditation workshop. I had to leave half through it because my head was killing me and I knew I had to drive home before surrendering by taking prescription migraine medication.

I got home around 3pm with an official migraine. I took the medication and fell a sleep for two hours. I woke up with the same migraine. It wouldn’t break. Around 8:30pm I got out of bed and did a slow calming yoga and meditation practice. It felt good. It did help me sleep but didn’t get rid of the headache. I’ve have to take the meds every six hours until it’s gone. I am in no condition to leave the house or drive anywhere. I can’t really eat anything and I had to cancel lunch plans with a friend so I could rest and take care of my head. I stayed in bed until around 11:45am. I got up and had two cups of coffee and some gluten free granola. My headache relented a bit but isn’t gone. I have to take another pill around 2pm. If I don’t take the meds, this headache could go on for days. My doctor told me a few months ago she admires my tenacity and desire treat things holistically without medication. However, in situations like this, I need to take the meds. I do not have any addictive tendency to pain meds, I just don’t like taking pharmaceuticals. I am hoping this migraine breaks so I can stop the medication and drive to work tomorrow.

So, let’s break down the source of my work related stress down. My job isn’t horrible. I don’t hate it. I honestly believe folks in leadership are trying to do their best. I just think their lack of experience and understanding in some critical areas such as Program Management and Finance is hurting the Organization. I also think they aren’t asking for guidance and aren’t open to feedback or guidance unless you are Manager. Here what my problem is… I have to learn how to manage myself so I express myself appropriately. I do not intend to express these thoughts to anyone in management but I want to be sure I don’t get frustrated while watching the nonsense unfold and slip something out. Keeping my mouth shut has never been my strong suit. I’ve considered leaving the group to protect myself so I don’t keep getting stressed out by the nonsense I am watching.

With all of this said, I’ve decided to focus on taking care of my corner of the world in work. My new manager hasn’t completely transitioned into the role and it’s been hard to get decisions and time on his calendar. I’ve decided to make decisions myself, move forward with what I can and hope for the best. I’ve been reaching out to the team and asking them what they need. I am helping where I can. I’ve been having check-in meetings with staff members and taking actions on the time sensitive issues. I’ve been reaching out to folks who know have eminent needs and trying to get them resolved. Leadership is not a position; it is an action! I am LEADER! Thankfully, my former boss is coaching me through some stuff. Thank God for him. He told me to send him my list on Friday. He sent me some advice on how to move forward. He also told me to just keeping moving forward until someone tells me to stop because things need to get done. He is truly coaching me into leadership. I truly consider him a mentor and I am grateful for my relationship with him.

I needed to write all of this out to help release the tension and stress in my head and in my mind. I needed to pour it out so I don’t let my frustration be seen tomorrow. If you come back to my blog next week and this blog has been taken down, it’s just because I am not sure if any of my coworkers have found my blog. None have directly told me that they read it but I do not know for sure. But then again, would it be so bad for someone to read this? It’s the truth and I would stand by it and defend it.

Well, I am going to watch a few video lectures for school, keep ice on my head and go take my meds. I’ll probably go back to bed soon as the one med knocks me out. Hopefully, I’ll wake up pain free.

(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

Life is best when lived passionately

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Somewhere – Love, Sex And Poetry

Somewhere – Love, Sex And Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

My heart
Knew you
Were near
I could feel it
I knew it
Almost as if
I heard your
Heart
Beating
I felt the
Restlessness grow
I felt the excitement
Of seeing you
Wet me
With anticipation
Then I saw
Somewhere
You knew I
Couldn’t resist that
I blush
We both know
I couldn’t resist
Your bait

Trying to put it
Out of my mind
I focused on my duties
And fought every urge
I had to
Play the game
Nope
I wasn’t biting
But you were
Somewhere
And I needed a fix
It was a game
Could I find you
You do like
To play with me
And I do
So enjoy playing
With you
But
Sometimes
I am not quite sure
How to interact with you
What do you want
What should I say
Should I move closer
Should I give you space
Should I hold on
Should I let you go
Should I move on
We live
Somewhere
In the grey space
Of
To Be Determined

I took a deep breath
And tuned into
My intuition
I heard relax
Relax
Into the flow
Just be a good friend
Allowing myself to surrender
To our unknown future
I said a prayer
And bought the bait
I looked for you
As I entered the door
There you were
My preppy Blue Love
You smiled a little
Like you knew
I would eventually give in
Were you timing me?
You smiled
But tried to hide it
Your tense shoulders
Melted a little
As you greeted me
And I knew
I was happy
Somewhere
Was here
Near me
Suddenly
It was hard to breathe
Did you notice?
Did you notice?
I felt
Love swell up
Into my mouth
I tightened up
To keep it in
I got tense
To keep it in
Keep all in
I try to take
Care of you
I try to
Nurture you
But I can tell
You aren’t used to it
I can tell
You aren’t used to
Being loved
The way I love you
So
I hold it back
I hold it all back
So you
Don’t push me away
I want to be
The person
You exhale with
I want to be
The arms
That shelter you
Oh my God
In a split second
It was getting
Hard to breathe
Did you notice?

As I walked away
Today
I thought
I never wanted
To love you
I never wanted
To fall into
Those beautiful blue
Eyes in the
Preppy blue shirt
And boyish smile
But now
I am quite sure
I never want to
Live without you
Will you let me
Nurture you
Will you let me
Take care of you
Will you let me
Eventually love you
Surrending into
The grey of the unknown
As change
Hangs in the air
Of our reality
I am going with our flow
Wherever it goes
Hoping that
You let me
Love you
But strong
Enough to accept
Whatever you choose
Just know
Right now
I am somewhere
With you

(C) 2017 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved

Life is best when lived passionately!

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Living Through Pain Hostically

One thing I know to be true in life that my life has change dramatically since I shifted my approach to life. Prior to a year ago, I was living my life based on my fears. My fears controlled me. My fears surrounded me. My fears limited me. My fears kept me from loving myself. That fear kept me from being able to love others. I was paralyzed emotionally by fear.

Around this time last year I started listening to and reading books by Marianne Williamson. Marianne primarily teaches lessons on A Course In Miracle. The more I read the more my mind started to opening. As my mind opened, I started challenging everything I knew to be true in my life. As I challenged the truths in my life, at the time, I started awakening. Once I awakened, my whole world shifted. I will state here. I love Marianne Williamson books on ACIM and I love her teachings on spirituality. However, she is very political in her lectures. I happen to like my spirituality without any political agendas. So, I don’t always enjoy her live lectures as much I as I enjoyed her books. My favorite teaching on ACIM is… When you choose LOVE OVER FEAR, everything changes in life.

Last fall I also read Man’s Search For Meaning by Viktor Frankel. In this book, Viktor Frankel describes his experiences and survival in the World War II in Concentration Camps in Poland. The lesson that stays with me on a daily basis from this book is that a man/woman can endure unbearable suffering and sorrow as long as they have a reason to live. As long as person has a reason to believe, has something to live for, someone to love or a passion that pushes them forward, they can suffer any atrocities. This book moved me on the deepest core of my being. It changed the way I looked at life. It changed the way I approached people. It opened my eyes to suffering and the true beauty of the human spirit.

I suppose the true awakening happened for me after a series of family personal problems. First, my sister blew up her life last fall. I supported her both financially and emotionally for a few months. She is on solid ground now. Next, on January 31st around 5:00pm, I found out my niece was drug addict because she was arrested for stealing drugs from the Pharmacy she managed. I had to go to Philly to help bail her out. This began one of the hardest week’s of my life. It took a solid week of interventions to get her to go to rehab. She did her 28 days, got Community Service for her first time offense, paid retribution and will not have a record. She has been sober for a few months and has two jobs now. One she actually loves and the other givers her some extra money. Her life is stabilizing but she and her fiancé both know – she will be fighting for her sobriety the rest of her life. I am proud of the new person she is becoming. Also, related to my family, my mother is 78. She is basically healthy and has a solid mind for her age but little things are starting to happen and I find I am being asked to take a bigger role in helping her through the aging process.

Also weighing on my mind is my closest friend(other than my sisters and nieces) has been living with Stage IV Cancer for four years after being told she only had 18 months to live. She is my hero but the Cancer is slowly spreading and I’ve been watching the changes happening. I suppose I live in the moment with her and celebrate today instead of thinking too much about what is coming down the road.

And, last fall the man I am in love with took a temporary position away from me. It was supposed to be only four months but it’s been over a year now. Over time, through all of the crap that’s happened in my life since he’s been gone, I’ve learned how to love myself and him unconditionally in his absence. I also learned I want to love him freely without attachment. I learned I want him to consider me a loyal friend first. So, him being away is teaching me to how to love, truly love myself as well as him. I am just going with the flow.

Through all of this, I was having health issues. I went into a Autoimmune Flare up most likely brought on by stress. I was also diagnosed with a second Autoimmune Disease. I now have Celiac Disease and Primary Sjogren’s Syndrome. While the worst part of the flare up in over. I am no longer exhausted. I am not sleeping as much. I’ve been on a pretty strict diet to control inflammation and have felt an improvement with the elimination of Diary from my diet. I also added a strong Omega 3 Blue Ice Cod Liver oil which is helping with the Sjogren’s dry eyes and dry mouth. The lingering symptoms that I have now are joint pain, being cold and having ice cold feet all the time. My hip is in pain all day. I am double jointed and have hyper mobile SI Joints in my hips. That pain radiates into my right hip especially. There isn’t a lot that can be done to fix it other than manage the pain and keep moving. Inactivity seems to really aggravate it. I go back to my Rheumatologist in Philly next week. My Integrative Doc told me recently that being double jointed and having autoimmune disease is actually a syndrome and he would like me to get genetically tested to see if I have it. I will talk to the Rheumy about that next week. I have a feeling he may try to talk me into a round a steroids but I am not on board with that. I am learning to live, love, work, laugh and play while in some form of pain every day. I am learning to pick myself up, dust myself off and carry on – in pain.

Starting school for Integrative Nutrition completely changed my life and has given me a new purpose, a focus, a reason to live and something to be passionate about. I’ve met a whole team of new friends with similar interests. I’ve started to plan my business. I have an official LLC, Highest Good Holistic Health Coaching, LLC. A friend is helping design a logo and website. That should come soon. I was contacted this morning by a local holistic detox facility to see if I wanted to partner with them. I am having an exploratory meeting with them soon to see how I can help people in the recovery community. While I am still a little pissed off at my niece for being a drug addict, I am also amazed how living through the experience with her broke me open to my reason to live. Helping others find a way to live through pain holistically, just as I do, gives me a reason to live. Just as Viktor Frankel said… man/woman can survive any pain as long as they have a reason to live, a purpose.

Are you living through pain? Are you sad? Is your heart breaking? Are you struggling with heavy choices? Through the stress, in the middle of the pain, see if you can find something/someone to believe in. While you are crying in grief and despair for what you’ve lost or what you must leave behind, remember it is possible to live through pain and find a purpose again even when you weren’t even looking for one 🙂 I will close this blog by saying once you start living life choosing LOVE OVER FEAR everything changes.

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Love Changed Everything – Love, Sex And Poetry

Love Changed Everything – Love, Sex And Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

It’s blooming
From the
Deepest part
Of my soul
Bringing you
To my attention
Reminding me
Wherever I go
You are with me
It speaks my name
In the middle
Of the night
As I toss and turn
Staring at the clock
With you
On my mind
It spreads my legs
In arousal
And erotic submission
To the truth
In my heart
The truth
I carry
Day to day
The truth
I lay next to at night
The truth
That opens me
To a new power
Within me
It blooms from within me
As a force
To heard
It won’t be denied
It blooms from within me
As a force
To be felt
Breaking open
My heart to
To new depths
Breaking the dam
Of emotions
I’ve held back
My entire life
Showing me
My truth
It’s love
Love blooms
Within me
Love is changing me
Love is my hope
Love is my fire
I love you
Loving you
Is changing me
It’s making me
Stronger
More courageous
And profoundly
Motivated
To be a better version
Of myself
I am blooming from within
Because
Loving you
Changed me
Love changed everything

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Sleepless, Inspired And Blogging

It is 3:00am on Saturday Morning and I am up writing a blog instead of sleeping. My hip is on fire tonight and I can’t get comfortable. I am icing it now. When I get done writing this, i will try to sleep again.

I am not sure why my hip is in so much pain tonight. The Chiropractic adjustments, icing, Blue Ice Cod Liver Oil will Butter and Collagen Peptids have been helping. It’s been feeling pretty good for the last week or so. I guess this is the way it will be. I will have good days, bad days and some sleepless nights. I am trying not to use any heavy painkillers, or at least, limit my use of them so I using mostly holistic methods to reduce inflammation and just plain Tylenol and ice for the pain.

Since I’ve been awake all night, I have used the time somewhat productively. I’ve been researching and doing some planning for my coaching business, Highest Good Holistic Health Coaching, LLC. I got my LLC and EIN from LegalZoom today. I officially own a business. I did not pay for expedited service so I was surprised it only took less than 10 days. I am still in the business planning process. I just wanted to hold the name officially and move forward with establishing the business structure. I am not in a rush. I do not graduate from IIN until May 2018.

I want to be sure I have the all the legal stuff in place before taking clients. I want a fully written Business Plan with Goals; objectives, marketing methods and target market identification. I want a trademark, privacy statement, a strongly written waiver to use on all docs. I want a logo featuring a Blue Butterfly 🦋 created so I can use on business cards, letterhead, documents and a website. I want all of this in place before I see my first client. I want to legally protected and have full understanding of my scope of practice before I take any clients so I am working on establishing the business while in school. It keeps me out of trouble😂😂

I find it interesting that many of my classmates are seeing clients and taking cash payments under the umbrella of Sole Proprietor without having any of the legal stuff set up. I won’t do that. I am also not in a rush to get income from it. I already have a full time job. Mostly, I don’t want to do it yet because I want to take my time and enjoy creating my own business. I want enjoy the process. I want own every step. I want to make good well thought out decisions and I want to strategize so it is sustainable as well as has growth potential. Rushing to see clients while in school just doesn’t seem smart to me. I also we are not credentialed yet.

I already know that once school is done I am going to pursue advanced credentials and perhaps get certified as an official Life Coach as well. While I am in school the next few months, I am also taking some other training. I am doing Reiki 3 at the end of the month. I am taking the Mental Health First Aid course in November and I have a few meetings step up with potential advisors. I am doing outreach with a local recovery centers and starting to network and build relationships. I can see myself doing a lot of free lecture to local recovery centers. My niece who was in rehab in February and is sober now made me laugh. She said, “well, something good came out of me being a drug addict. My aunt found a business and a Calling!” I added, “only after I had a nervous breakdown, a migraine for two weeks and an autoimmune flare up from the stress!” She said, “ouch” 😂😂 I’m keeping it real with her. No more pulling punches. She gets 100% truth all the time now because she is an addict and is still in recovery. Tough love is the only way to keep her straight. She needs to remember how her actions affected the whole family.

A couple of things I need to get real clear on for the Coaching business. First, why am I doing this? What do I want to get from this? The high level answer to that is self fulfillment and to fulfill a Calling to be of service. Question two: How important is it to me to make money from this business? I really only set up the LLC for protection of personal assets. I have a good full time job that I do not plan to quit. But, who knows, what the future will hold. So, if I start getting this set up now, I’ll already have an alternate revenue stream. Question three: How much time every week do I plan to dedicate to this? Question four: How will I structure my “office hours” and appointment times around my full time work schedule? Question Five: How will I enforce boundaries? For example, no Highest Good work during my official 9 to 5 office hours. I am strict about that. I am not even posting on my Twitter or Instagram accounts from my cell phone during work hours anymore. Most important question: Who do I want to serve? What impact do want to make? What legacy to want to leave?

So, this is how a Calling works! You just got a nagging in your soul. For me, the Calling to serve has been happening for years. I just ignored it or haven’t been able to find the best way to answer it. IIN and the Coaching Business all came together quickly and easily which leads me to believe it is my path. But here’s the thing about paths – they turn. We need to be agile. I am going with the flow as best I can.

Next, I will talk about my full time job. Friday was a super crazy day. As far as my tasks go, I am fine. I have bandwidth for more but I’ve been busy trying to help someone transition into a new role. I feel like they’ve been testing me this week. It seems like they’ve been stepping back and letting me go a bit. They’ve freed up the reigns but also have given me pop up actions items, like drills 😂 But the end of the week I made list for my new boss of the most important issue he needed to address by next week. But, of course, urgent issues my take precedence. He cracked up when I reviewed it with and was thankful – even blushed because I was looking out for him. It seems I am managing my manager. Someone had to take control and make decisions; it was me😂😂😂💪Our current regeim has a hard time making decisions and sticking to them – everything gets revisited. They change their minds a lot. It’s hard to find solid ground when it keeps shifting. They do have strong organizational strengths which is a plus. Speaking of bosses, I tend to work better with men but I am adaptable. I’ve had two bosses that I enjoyed working for; I would enjoy working for either one of them again – especially the cute one 😂💙🦋Perhaps one day I will be my own boss 🙌

I’m not a half way kind of girl. When I am in, I am all in. When I love you, I love you probably more than you’ve ever been loved. My life is best when I am living passionately.

It’s about 4:00am and it’s time for me to try to get some sleep. The ice finally took away some of the pain. I also feel like I could eat breakfast now 😂😂 My breakfast spot doesn’t open until 7:00am. I know all the locals, sit at the counter and chat while drinking coffee. It’s a nice way to start my morning on the weekends.

Did you sleep well or were you up all night like me? Is there something burning in your soul or are you just getting up for the day? Are you living passionately or settling?

Live passionately with me! 🦋💙💙🦋💙

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Not Walking My Talk Today

Walking my talk…I confess I am having a hard time walking my talk today. Consciously, I am completely aware and I don’t have to let go of anyone yet. I know it’s not time yet. I know our connection is stronger than ever but things happening around me make it hard to not feel the void of his absence.

Changes, moves, things being packed up and put into storage by people who don’t care of him the way I do. Walking into the newly rearranged room and suddenly not feeling his energy around me. I used to feel him in there. I used walk in there and see pictures of him. I used to be in that space and feel close to him😢

While I am consciously aware the new tenant belongs there ☺️It’s their right to sit in that room. Actually, organizationally it probably sends a strong message that they are in charge since that is the room is where the leader sits. But, for me personally, it is also the room where the man with the beautiful blue eyes sat. It is also the room where I found myself falling in love with those beautiful eyes one hour at time, one conversation at a time – slowly. I lost my heart slowly to him.

I felt like I was grieving today. I felt like I lost my best friend or at least the person I looked forward to seeing the most there. As I drove home, I challenged myself to look at this from Integrative Nutrition Primary Food perspective. In other words, I asked myself “how do I work through these feelings? What do I do? Why I am feeling this so strongly today?” The way I work through the feelings is to write them out. I am really good at stuffing stuff down and internalizing things. I decided today I needed to write this out. I also decided it was ok for me to cry. I was crying because I was full of emotions. I wasn’t crying from losing him. I haven’t lost him. I was not crying because I had to let him go. I don’t yet. I was crying because I miss him🦋💙 I miss him…That’s what was bothering me today. I miss him because I am in love with him 💙🦋 The changes I saw today reminded how much I miss him and that the man I am in love with is no longer close to me 🦋💙

As I allowed myself to feel it, I also knew something else was pulling on my emotions. So, I asked myself, “What is it? What are not dealing with that is coming up today?” It felt GREY. It’s the feeling of limbo. It’s hanging out in uncertainty. It’s feeling all the people I love are struggling. My best friend is dying from Stage IV Cancer. She fights hard every day but we know she won’t beat it. She won’t beat it. My Mother is struggling with aging issues. Imagine if you were 78 and lived in your home 60 years… wouldn’t you be afraid to move? Her home needs works. My sisters and I are trying to work it out. My mom calls me crying because she’s scared and that scares me. I realized today when I am sad, it was often the beautiful blue eyes of the man I love that cheered me up. Just knowing he was near made me feel better. I guess I felt today like that feeling is gone forever. I was grieving for that loss. I know that is not logical but I already told you I am not walking my talk today😂 I am not flowing well with the Universe today😂 Instead of judging myself or denying it, I am just going to let myself feel today.

Loving someone unconditionally often requires us to stand back and give them space to figure things out. Sometimes what is for their highest good isn’t us; then again sometimes it all works out and everyone lives happily ever after. I refuse to be needy and cling to him. He is free. My love is given to him freely without expectations. I am just having a hard time walking my talk today. That’s all.

As I surrender into the unknown and ask God for divine guidance, direction and love for all, I consciously know everything is working out for the highest good of all concerned. But for tonight, I am going to just be sad and miss him 💙🦋💙🦋

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Love Letter ~ Love, Sex And Poetry

To the man I never wanted to love:

I never wanted to love you. I never wanted to fall in love with you. I was just walking down a hall minding my own business one day when BOOM! 😂There you were looking adorable and staring at my breasts. Flushed and confused, I found myself trying ignore what happened in hopes I wouldn’t fall. As time went on, I found my footing slip and I slowly fell into your beautiful blue eyes and have yet to find my way out.

I knew then I could not go back and look at you the way I used to. I couldn’t tell my heart that your eyes are just like all others. I couldn’t stop my heart from racing when you were near me. I couldn’t stop my body from becoming wet and aroused in your presence. I knew I was in love with you before you left a year ago.

Through this last year, I’ve grown and I’ve learned how to love you in healthy way. I also learned how to love myself unconditionally. It is in the framing of unconditional love I write these these words to you.

My heart swells with emotions as I consider moving into the future without you in my life.  I try to comprehend what that could mean to both of us.  How that change could impact who I am and how I live my life.  I ask myself if I can move through the pain of letting you go.  I ask myself if I will ever love another man after we let go.  I ask myself if my heart will find the path to love beyond you and how long will my heart hold your beautiful eyes in my focus before it opens up to another man.  I do not have answers to those questions.

There are a few things I do know to be true in my life. The truth is I can’t see my life without you. I can’t see how I will move forward knowing you are no longer in my experience. My other truth is I love you.  I love you.  Those are the three words that hang on the end of every sentence I write to you.  Those are three words I write in poetry for you.  Those are the three words my eyes say to you. Those are the three words I feel as my eyes swell with tears thinking about how will I ever let you go and live without you in my life.

As choices lay before you, I am not asking you to return to a place that no longer gives you fulfillment.  I want you to be happy, fulfilled and living your highest good life.  What I am asking you is to remember I am not like everyone else you leave behind.  I am not like others who will miss you.  I am different because I am a woman who loves a man.  I am different because I am in love with you.  Others may care about, respect you and admire you but I am in love with you.  When I let you go, I am letting go of love. When I say farewell, I am saying farewell to the man I love.  My eyes well up with tears as I allow myself just a moment to feel the heaviness of those emotions and comprehend what that means to both of us.

I see and intuitively know you are at a crossroads in your life.  Life is calling you to make big heavy choices. I sense your restlessness.  I feel you are half in and half out of everywhere; not completely sure where or how you will jump in all the way. But I also see a new man rising out of this transition.  I see a new conscious man rising and on the brink of a major transformation. Whether that transformation is physical or spiritual I am not sure.   I sense a new awareness in you.  It makes me love you even more.

As a woman who has been through major transformations and is flowing through life’s changes taking one deep breath at a time, I understand how it feels to be uncomfortable. I know how it feels to feel the weight of choices on your shoulders.  I will not allow myself to be needy or to burden you.  I want you to understand I will love you no matter what you choose. Even if your choice means I lose you, I support you in whatever choice you make because I want you to be happy and fulfilled. I want to help you find your highest good in life by being someone who loves you unconditionally.

As I stand back and flow through changes, I offer some insight I’ve learned along the way.  Transitions and transformation require a good bit of courage and require surrender into the flow of life.  These times of life are the times that remind us we are alive. They make our hearts race with excitement and perhaps make us even question our sanity.  But, trust me, these times of transformations are worth every bit of anxiety endured for they change us on a cellular level.

As you become conscious and start to listen to the wisdom in your own heart, you will know what path is right for you. You will also know it because it will feel scary and make you a little sick to your stomach.  Lol 😂 As I let go of my attachment to you, I consciously understand that just because you may not be in my daily life, doesn’t mean I am losing you.  I am hoping there will still be a place for me and my love in your life. I am hoping you see me as someone who can support you through your transformation. I am hoping you see me as a friend and quite possibly a co-conspirator 😈💋 I am hoping you see me as a woman who loves you and only wants your highest good.

I never really planned to write to this letter but I feel called to express these words in hopes you see them. I know the words I write here may overwhelm you. You may ask why do I write these words now? I write these words now because if I am truly on the brink of having to let you go forever, then I really have nothing left to lose anymore. I am ready to accept whatever choice you make and still love you unconditionally. That is what true love is…true love is free of conditions and attachments. Love is freedom. Love is the key 🔑💙🦋

In loving surrender,

Linda

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All Is Well ~ Love, Sex & Poetry

All Is Well ~ Love, Sex And Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Does your soul
Hear the echo
Of my name
When your heart
Longs to feel
The sweet melody
Of love
And hangs
Gingerly
On the edge
Of your mind
As one thought
Slides into your awareness
And another
Slides out
Is it my words
Aching in your heart
Gnawing
On the corners
Of your
Courage
Speaking into you with
Faith
Hope
Joy
Love
Breaking your comfort by
Whispering
All is well
My love
All Is well
Blue is my love
All is well
Is it my eyes
That rattle
The cage
You built around
Your passion
Locking it away
Until it
Pushes against
The bars
Of your bravery
To be set free
And pushed
Finally
Between my legs
Without resistance
Is it our fire
That lights the match
Of creation
Within our souls
And fits us together
As missing puzzle pieces
Completing the picture
Recognizing
My story
Your story
Are becoming our story
Is it the promise
Of my love and passion
Is it the promise of
Our Growth and fire
Is my promise of
Loyalty and friendship
Honesty and humility
Worth your sacrifice
Of comfort
Close your eyes
My love
Steady yourself
In my strength
Allow me
To breathe
The spirit of my soul
Into your lungs
All is well
Rest in the love
Of your soul mate
Rest in our love
All is Well
Love
All is well
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It’s A Calling – Holistic Health Coaching

I went to my Chiropractor this morning. I’ve been in chronic muscle and joint pain from Sjogren’s Syndrome. My right hip especially has been on fire and in a spasm. I am not big on taking pain meds but I have been taking Tylenol everyday and have even needed something stronger at times. Mostly, I’ve been using ice instead of heat. Ice seems to feel better which makes me believe there is inflammation in the hip. I watched Lady Gaga’s Netflix documentary the other night. Honestly, I knew exactly what she was talking about with chronic pain and spasms. I never broke my hip but I have joint issues from Sjogren’s and they think she has an Autoimmune Disease. My Chiropractor and I agreed to try weekly adjustment and manipulations for six weeks. If I don’t get some pain relief from that, I will go to the Ortho doc for shot of Cortisone.

Here’s the thing about being in chronic pain…I move through it. I don’t talk about it all day long. I don’t use it as an excuse to be rude or to take hard core meds. I simply try to move through it. I’ve walked four miles four times a week through most of the summer. I am back to practicing yoga. I wear high heels. I put on make up. I go to school and work full time. I move through the pain. The pain is teaching me something about myself. It’s showing me I am capable of moving through a lot of crap and still find my highest good. It showing me I can still feel happy, balanced and fulfilled while still in pain. My pain is my teacher. While I am grateful I’ve learned how to control my mind and habits to help me move through the pain, I am ready for some relief. It is a drag being in chronic pain especially when I try to sleep. When I am done writing this blog and after I call my mother, I will be on the sofa icing up my hip and hoping I wake up tomorrow with a little relief from my adjustment.

While I was in my Chiropractor’s office, we got into a conversation about my Integrative Nutrition course and setting up my business. He said he wanted to help me get my business off the ground. After we chatted for a while, he offered his office to me to use for free as a safe meeting place with clients until I see where the business is going to go. He said he will give me a key once I have a LLC and Liability Insurance set up. Amazing! I am very lucky to have made such a great friend and strong ally.

My Doc then asked me what my plans are for the future of my holistic health coaching business. I responded honestly by saying, “I have no fucking clue!”😂 He cracked up. I then added, “It’s a calling. I am being called or should I say pulled to do it. I am not sure where it’s coming from. I just go where I am called and following the clues. I am in the flow… I am flowing… I am just following the signs… I am going with it… I am not sure where it will end up. Perhaps I don’t need to know that right now. I am following a calling and watching for the signs of the next steps. So far the Universe has had my back!” That is truly how I feel. It’s really the only way to explain why I am doing all of this when I already have a good full time job.

I don’t feel passionate about having my own business. It’s not an essential for me. Some folks dream about that. I am not one of them. I am only doing it now because that’s how you get started in holistic health coaching normally. Honestly, if a large coaching firm would hire me and pay me a decent salary as an employee after I am done school and certified, I would probably quit my current full time job for the opportunity to do work I am passionate about. That’s why I am saying I have no clue where this is going. I just feel like it’s something I need to do.

The premise of my business is everyone’s highest good is different. I want to help people find their highest good possible. I want to help people learn to find the sweet spot in the areas of their life that may be sticky now and need attention. Often tension headaches and stomach issues are actually manifestations of being unfulfilled in our relationships and careers. Stiffness in the body happens not just from age but also from a lack of movement. It’s stagnation. A racing mind, if left unchecked for a long time, can lead to anxiety and sleep issues. I would like to help guide my clients to find holistic solutions to those type of issues as well as help them understand the power of food. For example, eliminating Dairy from my diet has been a game changer. It blows my mind how much my allergies have settled down since I eliminated Milk and Cheese from my diet. I would like to guide my clients through experimenting with food choices until they find the best combination for their body. I want to help people live their highest good life.

I am a 50 year old woman. I am not the perfect weight. I have health issues and my body is banged up just like most 50 year olds. But, I am also managing two Autoimmune Disease without steroid meds and only occasional assistance from big pharma. I know how to navigate docs appointments. I am completely in touch with my higher self. I understand how to flow with the Universe. Most importantly, I am a good listener. More times than not folks already know their own answers, they just need someone to guide them through the right questions. I have all the skills to do that. When I graduate in May, I will be a “Certified Holistic Health Coach” and CHHC will be after my name. I also feel like I want to focus my practice on people over 50 who are also a little banged up. I feel like I would be able to offer them support and assistance through the aging process and help them find their highest good in their banged up body. 😂😂

So you may ask me why I am doing all of this. Where is this going? What are my plans? And, I will tell you honestly, “I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE! I am just going with the flow and following the signs the Universe is sending me!” 😂😂😂

Are you in flow? Are flowing instead of resisting? Are fulfilled and satisfied in your relationships and career? Do you feel a calling to somewhere new? Can you put your toe in the water of a new life and see how it feels?

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Living The Life I Am Capable Of Living

I started Module 15 in my Integrative Nutrition class. This module is all about starting the business, setting up Six Month Coaching packages and how to build the business. OMG! The anxiety attack I had while doing this module was intense! My Accountability Partner and I were cracking up at each other’s panic attacks 😂😂

The actual coaching does not freak me out. I’m a relator and a giver✌️ I’m a natural coach ✌️🦋☺️It’s all of the business stuff that is complicated. The Business plan, a lawyer, liability insurance, creating pricing packages with incentives, identifing the services I will offer. I want to offer a free initial consultation, traditional 50 minute sessions. A fee for a one off session. A fee for a mini package and a 6 month(12 session package). I want to also offer Pantry makeovers, Food Store Tours(how to shop & make better choices). Here’s a tip – stay out of the center isles! It’s all garbage! Since my target market is folks 50 and over, I will also offer the senior rates and do plenty of pro-bono work for folks on a fixed income. 

The need to get my business set up soon got even more intense this afternoon when I had a practice session with a friend who at the end wanted to hire me and buy a package. I wasn’t ready. Luckily she isn’t in a rush, understood I wasn’t set up yet and is willing to wait for me. In the meantime, I’m offering free text/email questions and consulting to more or less keep her interested😂It’s a good problem but a bit of pressure too. As a student, it’s suggested I charge $95/month for a six month package. That doubles after I graduated. I will also offer incentive discounts for signing the same day, paying in full or using a PayPal. I love PayPal 😂👍

Here’s where I need to check the balance of my Primary Food. I already have a full time job 😂This business will be side business that I do for my personal fulfillment but it’s still work. I’m going to have to figure out how to balance that. I think once it’s set up, it will be easier. I may need to take a week of vacation from work to get everything established. I also need to buy a MacBook or an iPad Pro with a keyboard. But I just bought a new car and don’t want to spend the cash until next year 😂

This is all exciting and fun😊But it’s also a little scary. Anytime we try something new and put ourselves out there it’s stressful. What’s the alternative? There isn’t one for me. I refuse to live a life that is less than the one I am capable of living. That rings true in every aspect of my life. I’m an ALL-IN kind of girl. In work or in Love, I like to be all in 😂💙🦋🙏

I am very thankful for my Accountability Partner. She’s a great coach. We are planning to go on a yoga retreat together this winter 🙏🦋If you are looking for a coach who specializes in Woman’s health and is available in the NYC area or by phone/Skype, check out her website
www.findyourbrave.blog 

What’s exciting you today? Are you living the life you are capable of living? Are you All In? 

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My Love Is You ~ Love, Sex & Poetry

My Love Is You ~ Love, Sex And Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Love is
All I have
To offer you
Love
Warmly reflected
In my eyes to yours
Love
Gently swings
On my hips
As I pass you
Love
Passing in air
As my energy
Brushes against you

Love is
All I have
To offer you
Love
Hanging on
The pout
Of my lower lip
Glistening with
The anticipation
Of your kiss
Love
Jiggling my cleavage
As I walk towards you
Inviting you
To hold my breasts
In your hands
And feel my warmth

Love is
All I have
To offer you
Love
Written privately
For only
Your eyes to see
I miss you
Love is
Alive in my smile
As I look at you
Standing before me
Love is
When I feel
Reassured
That you are
Near me
Come closer
Close enough
For me to
Whisper softly
Into your ear
I am happy
You are home
My love
Is you
Love is
All I have
To offer you
My love is
You
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Putting Life In Balance 

This is a brain dump post.

I’m 14 weeks into my Holistic Health Coach Course. The most positive impact the course has had on my life is that it’s forced me to look at the areas of my life that are considered Primary Food. Primary Food are the areas of life that nourish you off the plate such as: Job and Career Satisfaction, Exercise and Physical Activity, Spirituality(not religion but a connection to your higher self, Relationship, Sensual satisfaction (can be accomplished with or without a partner).

The beauty of this is that because I am more conscious and aware now I can feel when I am out of balance or alignment. When I feel that uncomfortableness creeping up or if I feel my muscles tightening up, I know to step back and do a Primary Food Scan. I look to through those areas for what is out of alignment and try to adjust.

This past week I could feel my delicate balance between work, home, family, friends and responsibilities wear on my emotions. I was feeling anxiety. I was tensing up and becoming a bit overwhelmed. Here are the issues:

My BFF has been living with Stage IV Metastatic Peritoneal Cancer. She has been holding her own the last year. She called me the other day to tell me that not only did it spread further it also reoccurred. It took me some time to adjust to our new reality. She is determined to live life to fullest to the end. Even though she’s not feeling great we committed to spending more time together face to face when she’s up to it. Her partner is a private guy. He’s been a good caretaker for her but really doesn’t want anyone hanging around the house too much. That may change but for now I respect that and his wishes. 😥

My Mother is having an issue with her home owners insurance wanting to drop her because of exterior maintenance. This is a complicated issue and it would all be solved if she would move to an apartment near my sister but she will not. She confessed to me her memories of my sister, my father and the happiest times of her life are in that house. She told me she won’t leave and she will die there one way or another. That statement is sitting on my chest and causing me constant worry. I’ve called in every favor I have and swallowed my pride asking people for advice or help for her. Her State Representative is working with my sisters to see if they can find a solution. But, let me say my heart is full with compassion and empathy for my Mom. It’s been hard to turn off the voices of her suffering. I feel it all day long. 😥

There’s been some work drama. I realized yesterday none of it directly affects me or involves me so I need to keep a distance in some ways. A bitter coworker vented to me. The Norma Rae in me felt her battle cry 😂😊The truth is Management did not take her concerns seriously and as result they are losing her. From my lens, I see her point because I experienced many of the issues with the same manager. I have a lot to say on this topic – if anyone cares to listen 😂😂😂

Physically, I’m feeling ok. Just a little tired this weekend so I am taking things easy. Emotionally, I miss my blue eyed muse. I try not to think about what his next move is. People tell me all day long he’s not coming back. That causes me anxiety as I don’t know what means for us and our connection. That also challenges my attachment issues and fear of loss. I try to just love unconditionally and have faith everything is working out for the highest good of all concerned. I try to focus on my love for him instead of my fear of losing him. I just wish people would stop speculating; that is tweaking the anxiety in me. Love is tricky 😂💙🦋

Back to school, some things became clear recently. I will not walk away from a pension to be full time health coach. That would be financial suicide. With the current level of support that my Mom needs I can’t do that. So, coaching will be my side business. It will be work I do to feed my passion. I Originally thought I wanted to focus on folks with Autoimmune Diseases but now I see Seniors are an underserved population. Since I do have a full time paycheck, I could offer seniors coaching at reduced rates and sliding scales for issues like Diabetes, High Blood Pressure and healthy grocery shopping. I talked to my accountability partner about this today. She is a fellow student who happens to be a Psychology Professor who specializes in aging 👍She helping me come up with plan. I will start doing some research. I need to find a name for my business and create a website too 👍

Lastly, I am loving my new comfortable Ford Escape. The blue is really pretty and I feel super comfy and supported while I drive. I also love that Siriusly Sinatra is back in my life on Sirius FM. I love that style of music.

Is your Primary Food in balance?

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My new Blue 2017 Ford Escape 

Yep, it happened 😊 I traded my car in yesterday and Leased a 2017 Ford Escape SE. Here’s why and how I ended up with a blue car when I went in asking for a white or black Ford Escape 😂💙🦋

Well, it started a few months ago when I started having a lot of joint, muscle, back, neck and shoulder pain. I also started getting Ocular Migraines. My doc suggested I keep track of what I am doing when the migraines start. He also ask about my posture and neck tension. Both can contribute to migraines.

I noticed a couple of months ago most of my migraines are triggered when I am driving. My 2015 Honda Fit sat low. Glare from the front hit my eyes directly and glare from the back hit my rear view mirror when I drove at night. Because the seat sat low it had no lumbar support and I twisted my back when getting in and out. Lastly, the door swung out pretty wide, it was heavy and hurt my shoulder when I pulled it in. I LOVED the Honda Fit❤️It was sporty, handled nice and I could park it anywhere. BUT, it is a big but, it was no longer appropriate for my changing body. I need more support and better posture support when I am in the car.

I test drove Honda HR-V. I liked it but Honda offered no rebates. I was trying to trade in a 2.5 year old car. I needed rebates to offset the upside down payment. I also figured out the best way to eliminate an out of equity situation in a car loan is to lease. I am Goldie Locks with cars. It is best I don’t make any long term commitments right now. I knew for sure Ford was offering $2K  in rebates until October and had good lease options if you have good credit. Additionally, a good friend works at the local Ford Dealership. I did my credit application online and I called to make an appointment for a test drive. My friend helped me from there with introductions.

Here’s how I ended up with Blue Love in a car😂😂I went in wanting Black or maybe White. All of the Black and White Escapes were top of the line with leather. They were out of my self imposed price range. The salesman then said, “Hey, how do feel about Blue?” I laughed and said “I love Blue!” Then he told me they were pulling one Escape off the truck and it was Blue. I waited for them to bring it over. The damn car has power Lumbar support👍It had me when I felt how supported my body felt when I drove it and the Blue is just beautiful💙😊It was perfectly in my self impose price range too 👍

Here’s where it got sticky…The deal…It took a while to work it out. Having a friend who worked there helped. I also was not attached and I was willing to walk away. So, I ended up with $4,500 in rebates and discounts. I did a lease for 15,000 miles for 36 months. This will force me not to drive too much 👍My Lease will be finished a over a full year before the Honda Fit would have been paid off👍✌️My payment is only $20 more per month. However, I had put a some money down. Although some of that will be refunded once the trade in is finalized and my Gap Insurance is refunded, it was more than I planned to put out in cash. Sooo, I will be downsizing my spending for while😂 I will not be buying a MacBook, at least not until next year maybe ☺️🦋It’s all good. Being more comfortable and supported in my car will be better for my long term health than a MacBook🦋🙏

I drove the car today and was extremely comfortable and felt my back saying, “ahhh”. 😊It also came with Sync. My text messages display on my screen or can be delivered as audio. The Escape came with Sirius Radio for six months. I immediately found my two favorite stations, Siriusly Sinatra and Classic Vinyl ✌️The best thing was I got my Angel Numbers, 723 and 1111 while closing the deal. I saw that as confirmation that I was supported by Spirit in the transaction 🙏🦋The car ending up being Blue and fitting my Blue Love theme is also kind of spiritual and meaningful too 💙🦋✌️😊

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The Light Of Love ~ Love, Sex And Poetry 


The Light Of Love ~ Love, Sex And Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

I will
Show you
The way
If you let me
I will
Show you
The way to love
I will shine
My light
Into your soul
And call
To the passionate
Masculine energy
That calls
My name
When you
Look at me
I will
Help you release
The restless passion
In your soul
Your restless
Passion hangs
In my cleavage
I will call
Your passion to your
Attention
And ask for
It to rise
And meet me
I will feed
Your passion
If you let me
Let me

I will
Show you
The way
If you
Let me
I will
Set your heart
Ablaze with
The fire
Of sexual desire
I will
Lick the tip
Of your masculinity
And bring you
To attention
I will
Set you
On fire
If you
Let me
Let me

I will
Show you
The way
If you
Let me
I will
Be the light
In your heart
Your heart light
Warming you
With love
From the inside
Inspire you
To stand tall
In love
Stand tall
In my love
I will
Reassure you
That the path
To love
Is always
For our highest good
I will show you
Love
Is the highest possible
Vibration
Love is
Is a powerful
Point of attraction
Love
Is greatest
Tool of creation
Vibrate love
With me
Vibrate love

I will
Show you
Pure love
Is the path
To profound
Joy
Any detour
Your path
Takes
Any roadblock
You face
Any
Disappointment
You encounter
On the path
To your highest good
Serves a purpose
In your growth
I will reassure you
Love is the key

I will
Shine
My love
Into your heart
I will
Take your hand
And show you
The way to
Joy
Love
I will walk
The path
Towards the
Highest good
With my hand
In yours
If you
Let me
If you
Let me
I will
Show you
Love
If you
Let me
Let me
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NOTE:
I had a wonderful day. I was happy and vibrating with love💙🦋My Blue Eyed muse was in my atompshere and inspired me with love 🙏💙🦋 I had a great first meeting with my new boss. I said farewell to my former boss as he leaves for a bigger opporttunity. He said he wanted to take me with him but didn’t think they would let him😂😂I laughed and said I would go and was up for a change of scene😂We both laughed it off but I think we were both a little serious😂😂

I starting to feel really good physically; I was told I was looking great today😂👍I walked four miles tonight. It was just beautiful. Heading to Philly for the day tomorrow for family time & I have a coaching call on Sunday with a potential client👍🙌All good things are happening in my life. I have been focusing on keeping my vibration high 👍I am vibrating LOVE💙🦋It’s powerful🙌✌️

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